Today jealousy spiked within me. This made me think on how i have been trying to become at peace with myself. With this thought process i realized that the heart of the jealousy comes from my competitiveness. It was like i didn’t want someone to do better than me. There are a few different thought patterns that i get from this. One am i really that unhappy with my life and two, why do i always have to compare myself to other people? I am leading a different life, so it should be like apples and oranges right?
On that note yes i am unhappy with my life. I am always wanting more or something better. Sometimes wanting a better life for yourself is a good thing and it can help you to strive for more, but in my case it makes my future seem hopeless. I hate living like this! This summer i am going to get my mind and body healthy and really focus on what is important to me.
I have always thought it was strange that people would do new year resolutions in the dead of winter. I could never get myself to do something life changing when i have finals breathing down my neck and darkness is all consuming(i live in Alaska it is all consuming trust me!)
summer has always been my season for change and motivation. This summer I plan on working on myself physicaly. I need to lean to exersise daily and to eat right. Health is on the brain this summer.
Slowly but surly getting back in to the swing of things. This summer i really want to focus on physical health and beauty. Once you take care of the physical then the mental part of yourself should be easier!
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